So...this is weird, I usually just update on how my life's going (it's going well XD), but I dunno, i think I got bothered by something, though I'm still not sure if I'm bothered at all.
Lemme just explain real quick. Mum and dad got divorced 21 years ago. dad's english, so he stayed in the UK, mum, sis and me went back to holland. So I never really had good contact (he basically never paid child support etc etc, he visited about 2 times and we went there twice, that's it). I hadn't spoken to him in yeaaaars, till I was about 19 and he found us online and we started talking again. We had msn-contact and talked occasionally. Then after a while, about 1.5 or 2 years it alls orta fell apart. He never came online anymore etc etc (I wasn't too bummed about this, I know my dad and I know he's..well...unreliable). I know he's been remarried, lives in Australia (melbourne) and ahs two kids, Jack and Matilda. So I never really speak to him anymore, last time was about 5 months ago, but before that I hadn't heard from him in over a year, so yeah.
Just to interupt this story: I've never felt sorry for myself for not having a dad. I was 2 years old when my parents split. Not having a dad is all I know and it has never bothered me in any way. Of course psychologist would probably have a field day uncovering buried daddy issues, but whatever, I've never been bothered by any trauma/issues, at least not to my knowledge XD So yes, back to the story!
Today I go to Youtube to check my subscriptions etc, and I find that it has a new feature, it finds people linked to your google account (and thus gmail) and asks; do you know these people? So I saw my Dad's youtube profile there. Right in front of me, linked to me. So I'm like: oooh! let's see what he's been up to! So yes, all good (felt a bit weird cause I didn't expect him to have an account). And he has 1 video favourited (none uploaded);
A little kid named Jack (6 years old) behind a drumkit, on the street with his instructor playing songs for people. Well...putting 1 and 2 together...yes. My little cute half-brother, rocking out to Another brick in the wall by Pink Floyd (and drumming amazingly good for a 6 year old, might I add).
I feel...weird. Like...my dad (even though he to me feels more like a distant uncle) with his amazing kid and he never showed me. I dont' care that he's never online anymore, but this vid isn't a new one, it's old, about 6 months old. And the last time we talked he could've...dunno...showed me (he was there for about 2 minutes, but still). I dunno. I feel like I'm whining, but for some reason this is weird. And I'm not even sure how to describe what I'm feeling. It's not anger or hwatever...just...weird.
So, because it's just too cute:
http://www.youtube.com/user/buskingjackHere's my little brother Jack, rocking out XD